stones

the family stone wasn't what i thought it would be about. i thought it would be your normal hopeless romantic, and instead it was about the world and more about it. i just think that as my relationship with Christ cultivates the older i get, the more sensitive i am to the situations that i see on the screen. i don't mind most of what i saw: the gay couple, i'm okay with- and if you want to know in what way i'm okay with it- ask me and i'll tell. bringing home a girl that you don't love for your family to basically ridicule? that is wrong. i know that he was trying to make things *right* and *fix* the situation, but man, not the reason to bring someone home. i think that i am really sensitive to love for many reasons that i don't know, but i really have something inside me that yearns for true love. i place that yearning of mine in the characters i see on the screen, and it is so hard to see how it isn't satisfied on that dreaded screen. i wish that people knew, the same things that i know.

i wish that people knew that there really is true love for them, and it waits for them to accept it full heartedly. i know that it has changed my life from the inside out, and still does. i know that it is hard to think that you can be so imperfect, yet still receive the most pure, strongest bond of love possible. i think that it's the only thing that will help me continue day by day.

God has totally changed my life. i am talking about the great *I AM* the One who is everywhere at the same time that He's in me, watching me, and listening to only me. The One that we began saying Merry Christmas to one another for, and the person we celebrate their birthday by giving -other- people gifts. the One who loves me like no one else can, and will never let me down. not even my husband can love me as much as He does, and that is simply crazy amazing.

i wish that people knew, and believed the same things that i know.